Area: Provo
Companion: Sister Etsitty
Hello!!
04/22/2013
have been really homesick and I have just felt the power of Satan working on
me. It is very hard to focus when we have our personal study time and I have to
have a prayer in my heart the whole day so I can stay focused but that doesn’t
really work. We were in class a couple of days ago and we were role playing and
we were teaching someone in the class and we were supposed to teach and asked
inspired questions. I couldn’t think of any questions and I was having a hard
time answering the questions that the Elder was asking me. I felt inadequate.
(<-- I have no idea how to spell that.) There were about three peoplewatching me teach and I felt so much pressure. I couldn’t handle it and with
wanting to be home at that moment I broke down and had to leave the classroom.My teacher came out and talked to me. (We have the best teachers ever) She
talked with me and helped me know that what I was doing was the right thing.
She was so surprised on how I was feeling. She said that I have such a great
spirit and that when I teach her as an investigator she really feels the spirit.
She says that I will be such a great missionary and she shared some awesome
scriptures with me. They are D and C 8:23 and Galatians 5:22-23. You should
look them up. They are so good. They talk about the spirit and what the spirit
feels like. I am striving to always feel the spirit and to drive away Satan.
Well on a lighter morehappier note... Lol We have in-field orientation and it was so much fun. They
told us more about the mission field and what it was going to be like. It
sounds a little stressful but it will be way fun. It is crazy to think that on
Wednesday I will be in the field knocking on doors! Oh, I didn’t tell you!!!
But last week on Tuesday we were able to go to the temple. The Provo Temple is
so pretty! I love going to the temple and I miss being able to go whenever I
want to. I feel such a great spirit in there. It was super cool being able to
go with the Elders. :)
jumping around all over the place and I really hope that it makes sense. Haha I
just have a lot of thoughts going through my head and I just write them when I
think of them. Well yesterday was Sunday and it was probably the best Sunday
ever. We had R.S. and Sister Cheryl Esplin from the Primary Presidency came and
spoke for us. It was such a great talk!! We also had sacrament meeting! They
always have the departing district sing a special musical number and since that
was us we sang I believe in Christ. It was pretty much a disaster. One Sister in our district laughed during the song and I was the only Sister singing. So it didn’t sound too good. But it was a good experience. I was having a hard time though. I thought a lot about home. Whenever I have down time and time to
think I think too much about home and start to really miss it. But after sacrament meeting I have my departing interview with Brother Carpenter and he told me that the homesickness will go away. And that everyone has their struggles and this is mine. I will get over it, I am just not used to being away
from home for so long and I still have 17 1/2 months! Haha.
already planning on getting one. Well later that night we had a departing devotional, our Sunday devotional... Which was awesome!!! The BYU men’s choir came and sang for us. They are so good. They made a CD for missionaries
and we get to download it for free! So I need to figure that one out. We also watched two videos and they were so good. One was the Stonecutter. You should watch it! And then the other one was about a man named John Tanner. You should
watch them both. They are so good and inspiring. It was exactly what I needed.
After the videos, my district all went back to the classroom and I had asked
one of the Elders to give me a blessing. The second they put their hands on my
head I felt the spirit flood into the room and comfort me so much! They elder
gave me such a great blessing and I could feel Heavenly Father speaking to me
through him. I needed it so much. And the other three Elders gave the other
three Sisters blessings and it is seriously so amazing how each prayer is
what each girl needed. Heavenly Father Loves us and he wants to help us. I am
thinking of the picture where He is knocking at the door and the knob is on the
inside of the door. We need to open the door and let Him in. He is waiting for
us. He loves us all. He suffered for us on the cross to take away our pains.
The atonement is such a powerful thing. We cannot let what he did for us go to
waste. Come unto Christ and repent. I know that with all of my struggles, I
will make it through if I let him in and help me. I need to open that door. I
love feeling the spirit and even though it has just been a few hours since I
received my blessing, but I feel so much better. I feel Heavenly Father with
me. I am here to do his work and he will bless not only me but the whole family
and I can testify that to be true. I hope that you are starting to see
blessings in your life. I love you all. And I hope that you are all doing well.
I miss everyone like crazy but I know that what I am doing is what I need to be
doing!!
Love,
Sister Halbison
P.S. I haven’t figured
out how to send pictures yet. But I have been taking pictures! If you could
send me and SD card, that would be awesome!!
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